Monday, August 16, 2010

Paranoia

Ever since I learned about my status more than four months ago, I've began reading up on materials on HIV and related topics to beef up whatever limited stock knowledge I have of the medical condition. I can say I have learned a lot but I am not yet an expert as I am still learning more and more about HIV.

Part of the reason why I decided to learn more about HIV is that I know how paranoia and even the lack of knowledge about the virus can affect me in more ways than one, even paralyze me in fear.

And I've encountered those whose paranoia have gotten to them.

Case # 1 - Pozzie A has two kids in the same house where he lives. They're actually children of his female housemate. He is scared that he might infect them by simply living with them.

Case # 2 - OFW has had as many HIV tests as he already had after an unprotected sex with a female sex worker. All test, done within the window period and even beyond, proved non-reactive but he is still worried that he has HIV because he does not trust the veracity of the test results and efficiency of the test kits. He has lost sleep, worrying over whether he is indeed non-reactive.

These are just two of the several cases of paranoid individuals that I've encountered.

One thing that is common among the stories I've come across is that the letter writers or concerned individuals resort to self-diagnosis or base their status on the symptoms they have even if the symptoms do not necessarily mean they are positive for HIV but for other ailments. They are scared of taking the test and with this, I encourage them to take it because that is the only way they would know what exactly are they sick of and their status.

Some take the test after much encouragement and gathering the guts to do so and they turn out non-reactive or negative for HIV. Whatever symptoms they had indicated other illnesses. Others are still scared of taking the test.

Paranoia won't get anybody anywhere and can even eat a person alive. The only way to address it or stop their fear is to know one's status so that whatever it is, he or she will be guided accordingly.

2 comments:

  1. hey juan, don't sweat it. As long as you're on meds and you're religious about it, you'll be fine.

    Think of it this way, as I've learned from a doctor friend who plays basketball with me-- a negative person probably takes drugs, smokes, drinks and drives-- shortening his life by 10 years... we, on the other hand, if adherent to the safety conditions and take care of ourselves the right way-- will probably be less 10 years too.

    It's all about looking at the glass half full or half empty.

    Cmon... it shouldn't be a biggy, ok?

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  2. hello pusitpusitsmore.

    i'm just sad, maybe a little amused, as how paranoid some people can be i hope that those who haven't taken the test will do so, for their own good. :)

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